i do my best thinking in the shower

new song,
four tracks of music , four tracks of vocals, in 3 time.
1 2 3 12 3 1 2 3 like a waltz

for the album?

http://images.google.com/images?hl=en&q=ships+at+sea&btnG=Search+Images&gbv=2

http://www.asianamericanfilmfestival.org/2007/

http://www.sfstation.com/underplayed-e27781

http://www.sfstation.com/american-modernism-1910-1950-e29841

My heart feels like its gonna rip through my chest it feels so huge. And the absolute best thing is its no one's doing but mine. Coming back again,

http://www.sfbluegrass.org/

http://www.sfbike.org/

http://music.sfweekly.com/Issues/2007-02-07/music/letsgetkilled.html

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Peru

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Belgium

Maybe it'll be ok.

i have a job for the day. im at a front desk where they say the incoming phonecalls are few and far between so i can do whatever i want to entertain myself using this computer. what should i do? i woke up this morning thinking it was a mistake to work today cause i was delaying my therapy appt but maybe itll be ok.
ps. my teeth hurt from eating bad stuff.

C'mon Virgina!

http://www.daytrotter.com/article/177/free-songs-the-donkeys
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I got spit on while walking back home last night.
i couldnt do anything but laugh . it was my gut reaction.

im into this new concept of giving an Apology in Advance

http://www.bored.com/createbands/index.html

orange juice and nuts for breakfast

i dont think its bad to be self sufficient and not be social ALL the time. some of us live in our own little worlds. it was nice to be around someone who could relate to that huge part of my life. im so content, and i dont mean to over compensate, with being in my room on my own, getting into little projects making songs videos, maybe drawing or dancing alone, my room is my space. occassionally in my lifetime ill let someone into that space ( and when i say The Space, i mean who i am when i am alone, but its few and far between) and I dont think its a bad thing to be selective. if i let everyone in then it wouldnt be special. to me anyway.
this recent rolling in of selfishness of course is a direct reaction to the selflessness which ive been practicing for the past five years or so to an almost pathetic degree. ie making excuses for people who were doingme wrong etc. i think thats why im so gung ho on ME these days. cause for the longest time it wasnt like that. part of me wonders whether or not i should get over the whole thing but another partof me says , THIS is you getting over it. im interested in seeing who's on theother side of this transition. guarded but selfless maybe. im sure ill find a good balance.
the man whositsnext to me upon hearing how i was doing " ah the same old sameold" told me ,
"hey man ,every day's a new day!!"
i feel like im not standing just yet, but soon.