i dont think its bad to be self sufficient and not be social ALL the time. some of us live in our own little worlds. it was nice to be around someone who could relate to that huge part of my life. im so content, and i dont mean to over compensate, with being in my room on my own, getting into little projects making songs videos, maybe drawing or dancing alone, my room is my space. occassionally in my lifetime ill let someone into that space ( and when i say The Space, i mean who i am when i am alone, but its few and far between) and I dont think its a bad thing to be selective. if i let everyone in then it wouldnt be special. to me anyway.
this recent rolling in of selfishness of course is a direct reaction to the selflessness which ive been practicing for the past five years or so to an almost pathetic degree. ie making excuses for people who were doingme wrong etc. i think thats why im so gung ho on ME these days. cause for the longest time it wasnt like that. part of me wonders whether or not i should get over the whole thing but another partof me says , THIS is you getting over it. im interested in seeing who's on theother side of this transition. guarded but selfless maybe. im sure ill find a good balance.
the man whositsnext to me upon hearing how i was doing " ah the same old sameold" told me ,
"hey man ,every day's a new day!!"
i feel like im not standing just yet, but soon.
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