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There's a home waiting too

Het told me about this site

http://www.godtube.com

theres a mentos commercial thts funny and the singing ex-homosexual is pretty funny too.
i took a lunch by the ocean with two birds looking at me for some fish. I gave them a little but not too much. Hada tuna sandwich chips and a big cran. why is this interesting enough to post ? who knows. i got 3 more hours of fun at this desk, will someone please save me? at least im getting paid, fuck yes. Het and I typed awhile this morning about random things , she had a couple good questions. 1) What amazing thing do you wanna get done this year? 2) Where do you want to be spending your 30th birthday. I said 'already this year has been fairly amazing' in so many words, and for my 30th b-day i said 'probably in another Home again, with a secure job i could stand and enough money to make it as unstressful as possible.' hmm, i just realized i dont mean Home like halfway house or anything, I mean Home as in an apartment id be sharing. i told her i couldnt begin to think of something iwanted to get done this year. i guess just start to move on, get better at leaving the past behind, letting go, and living here and now instead of so much in the future. i practiced eating on the other side of my mouth again. the tunafish sub i got was very big and it hurt a little but i managed.

I got aim.

Yesterday, I rolled out of bed to a root canal across the street. I've had a few before this one and it went pretty well if I do say so myself. The Spanish know what theyre doing. I found out Saturday my downstairs neighbor is from peru too. We joked around that he could be my father , so I shall call him Dad from now on. Yesterday was odd, my tooth was sorta achy after so much work done to it. It needed some rest. Anne came over later and watched Bananas. It was cool to hear other people laugh at the same parts that crack me up. I think it was number 6 or something I had watched it that day. What else, well I'm at work now, at the front desk of Condi Nast, some publishing company on the Embarcadero, just sitting here waiting for someone to call but the calls are slow here, and I'm fine with that. Its nice at least knowing I'm gonna be paid. I listened to the Royal Trux on the way to work today, made me feel invinsible, good morning feeling riding down market. I hadn't heard 764-Hero in awhile and I put them on side b of my mixtape, nice call back to the past. I got really stoned last night, and woke up with a small cloud in my head but nothing some water didnt cure. Its funny how some people walk a certain way, some swing their hips, some walk straight, some are hunchers, there's little box much like a garage door opener i use occassionally to open the front doors to the office. some woman said she liked my Aim. ' I got aim', i threw back. im wondering now, what should i look up on the internet so as not to get bored. im glad for alittle adventure tomorrow getting to work and back. i wonder what will happen today...

until i smoked pot i was feelin pretty lousy

I fucked up and got real drunk the other night. shit sucks. doesnt add to the already cloudy storm of events. no job little money not much socialization. i went to oakland though yesterday with steve to pick up some pot and hung out with some real cool people. it was nice to be social again and on point, this girl talked about wanting to own a cow and how cows have four stomachs. it was hilarrious. i wanted to hear more. it was nice to know there are cool people out there, at least in oakland. oakland really stuck on me, it reminded me a little bit of portland, in its quietness. i liked it a lot. the apartment was cool, guy living with his girlfriend, and i was reminded of how cool it can be. he had an anthony braxton record and i got to talk a little music. i think i miss living rooms, in zac's apartment there always livingroom time, but then wed go into his room and everyone would disperse. leah wrote me and shes gonna be in town mid may! thats so cool leah fuckin rules. ive been watching this movie today



bananas by woody allen

i think its my favorite along with Love and Death. i gotta get used to writing again. i miss it. itll help me keep things in perspective.
talked with alex and tom today and woke up with a call from het in boston. alex is living with his family outside of boston saving up for los angeles. tom's son everette was loud today over the phone and reminded me he is a father. its awesome. i stayed at home most of today sort of lonely wandering back and forth to the bathroom to see if i had to go pee. played a bunch of music and practiced some of the new songs. we were working on this reggae song yesterday which i wanna record for anne to hear. im psyched to get some drums and actually play with other people. i practiced today a sort of set , i started with this short intro then went into Dracula then played Let Me Be. i got about 5 newer songs im practicing now. i found one on my practice tape i forgot even playing but i like it. it goes like, Well you thiink i feel nothing, but, i feel you / and you think i know nothing , but i knoww you. haha i also worked on Edward Appleby again after leaving it be for awhile. i want to practice all the time. i want my organ back. i wanna have my finger more on the pulse of my libido. i wanna rip off some girls shirt and push her up against a wall and make out again. hard. nothing else but the excitement of taking. this pot tastes nice. anyone got a job i can borrow?