The closest thing to a pause button during life is taking a shower.
I was gonna open this one [entry] up by saying how much I enjoy going into the bathroom not knowing if it's gonna strike me to take a shower or not. It's the impulsiveness in such a context that still gets me. So this particular time I decided to jump on in. And in there, I thought about some things A had brought up. This is huge reason why I like hanging out with A, I'm always left with these hypothesis and situationals to think about: nature/nurture, tall or short, old and young - its good food, and I'm into eating. I was once told "etc." was sort of rude to put at the end of a list, or at least that's how I took it, how "etc." sorta means you don't care or don't remember the rest. I sorta believe that, but I also don't care enough to either. That right there, is my excuse for a lot of things. I was just gonna state a declaration but I think unless you're ceceding from the Mother Country, declarations don't do half of what they say. Words or actions? These are the things I think about a lot. I'm gonna declare something now: I hope this bit of writing will be a good place to practice balance.
Tom Westfall sent me a text message today that said , I'm at work , call you later. THAT is something new. Ha! Awesome, way to go Tom!
You think writers are the ones with the ultimate power?
When it comes to who we really are, through jobs homes cities, are the writers the ones with the wielding power who make the stories from all the nonsense?
I have found that in my naiveness I make believe I know but I don't.
I like not knowing and I like putting myself out there. I 've been influenced by others actions and nonactions, I want to do the same for others. I think I've been clouded for a couple years and it may take a little longer but I think I'm gonna come outta the tunnel a little wiser and confident. It just takes me a longer time than most. I may be quick but I'm also slow. I remember now why I make in the first place. to create to connect to create.
I dont mind my mind for everyone to see. And at the same time I want to save some for the select few. I think this is a good place to practice, I declare.