It's it. now.

I cant believe it. It makes want to scream out into the darkness past my window.
"!!!!!!!"
I have a computer again! With speakers! And the internet works bettr somehwat, perhaps cause of the stronger Airport card. God it feels so good, M US SICCCC!!!!
The closest thing I could think of that would match the hart was The Plastic Mastery
http://www.myspace.com/plasticmastery
Miles Away
look! links!! I also think of that part in Imagine when John and Yoko are walking through tittenhurst and hes speaking so hopefully about the 80s. The 70s were a drag but we made it, let's try and make the 80s better. 'And its just going to be so great..' Aww fuck YEAH. I paid rent today after a brief encounter with Anthony. Our anger breathes in and out in sync its sorta nice to get angry at someone then we both back down and just move on until the next time. I spent all day exchanging files from one computer, last night was the straw. I'll spare the story but god, it can get so complicated sometimes. This is why the best things in life are simple. If it's real, its usually simple and if it's simple, it's true. - thats john lennon too. Jose just pounded on my door and delivered the goods. I havent smoked in awhile since the plan's been underway. New bank account with new money. New computer with new music, new hope. New job and when I go back I know its gonna be different. I just cant believe that I get to hear music again. I heard Saturday Looks Good to Me, thenew album on K, which I wanted to buy but didnt know if i wanted to shell out 11 or so on an album i didnt know yet, something i would have done when i was younger but these days of living less, it was harder to splurge. Talked to mandy today and we shared the same ____. about feeling bored all the time and wanting to leave and how one place can be hard and cumbersome / how i asked about running away with the circus so i could always be on the move. i think thats what really scares me about this place, especially it being so damn tiny, just that when theres less people around theres just more to fuck up. more to get bored of too. its exhausting being expected to watch your social manners all the time. manner police are everywhere here. i wanna be surprised. surprise me san francisco, come on. do something besides the boring predictables. make some good art, ive seen your art, lets just say "ehh". if i see another gallery opening with hanging bicycle parts im gonna shit on he floor right then and there. ill do it! break the ice. im so over the aging hipster crowd and all that crap. its nice to hear someone else thinks the same. i dont feel so over (the hill). i got a message on my old LASTFM profile sent like this past monday : that a guy in england worked on another of my songs. AWESOME!! what better message could you get after returning to the internet. mandy was published too and she told me about a guy in brooklyn i might have known whos doing shit too. it all makes me feel so happy that there IS still a scene for the real kids. its still alive, its just where it should be. i wanna keep making music, i was listening to a new besties song, theyre fuckin awesome. unselfconscious pop. all this makes me so hopeful and so not so alone, its fuckin awesome. if i go to england its nice to know i got a place i can stay , thats a nice feeling. helping each other and the like but on a grander scale and for a bigger purpose than ourselves.
it really makes my heart crumple like paper. its been a tough year "but thats all gone now. thats over now."
Saturday Looks Good to Me - Make a Plan
ok time to hit it. hellll yeah!!!!